As usual, he's managed to win everyone over to his side of the story before I've managed to get a word in.
Love and devotion? Try crushing possessiveness. When he got 500 years of raising the child alone he got exactly what he wanted and what he'd been pushing me for the whole time the child has been alive. He didn't like it when he finally got it? Not my fault. If he'd allowed me in when I theoretically had equal access to the child, things might have been different, but in billions of years no one has ever been able to make him compromise on anything he cares about. I would have met him halfway. He wanted it all. I had no choice-- I would not stand by and rubberstamp the decisions that were destroying our child, reshaping him into the worst of both of us.
And they have never forgiven me for bringing your kind into the Continuum and arming them with guns that could kill Q. I'm not sure if I ever made this clear or not, but the weapons we had originally would never have worked in mortal hands. I altered them so your crew could use them, and you would think I had strapped transgenic weapons to field mice. They know it was my actions that won the war, but I won by terrorizing and demoralizing the opposite side completely. You people are virtually *invisible* in the Continuum; how do you think your helmsman managed to sneak up on a powerful ancient Q and draw weapons on him? And there are quadrillions upon quadrillions of mortals, and less than a thousand Q. They were horrified with what I did-- even my own "side". They embraced the human-raised girl who shot down six Q in combat, more than anyone else's kill ratio, they embraced him and the war would never have started if not for him, they even forgave the inventor of the original weapon (posthumously; ironically he committed suicide after the first firefight broke out.) But me, they will not forgive. Because I gave the power to kill Q to mortals. Even though none of you ended up actually using it.
And yet they accept him. Though he embraces mortals to the point where he'd have created a half-mortal child if you'd agreed. He would have given you the power to kill his kind in a moment if he had any grasp of tactics, which he doesn't; I gave you the weapons because he trusted you. Does that help? No, of course not. He's the brave hero and I am the outcast, after I was a respectable citizen for billions of years and he was a chronic rebel and general screwup. I couldn't fight his ruining our child and fight the pressure of the Continuum at the same time. I ran because I had no other choice. He gave me none.
But I intend things to be different now. If they have declared that for my punishment I must take over half the child rearing responsibilities? That's perfectly fine. They will enforce that I have the child half the time and that Q won't be allowed to interfere when I do. I may still be able to save this child from Q's irresponsibility and total lack of discipline.
As for basic friendship-- come now, if you were "friends" with any other being who had the power to send you home and instead squandered it on giving you coffee beans, you would hardly call that friendship at all. Friends help one another. He cannot help you. He's omnipotent. He would end up running your life if you let him. So you refuse almost everything he offers you, which is all very well for your personal development but hardly the behavior of anyone who could be called a friend. Mortals cannot be friends with Q unless the Q put aside their powers for a time and live as mortals. I understand why he can't see this, since he's always been a pathetic loser in that regard, but why you can't see it, when you know the correct way to behave toward him and his gifts, is beyond me.
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branchandroot
You have no idea what's going on.
Date: 2003-04-19 11:06 pm (UTC)Love and devotion? Try crushing possessiveness. When he got 500 years of raising the child alone he got exactly what he wanted and what he'd been pushing me for the whole time the child has been alive. He didn't like it when he finally got it? Not my fault. If he'd allowed me in when I theoretically had equal access to the child, things might have been different, but in billions of years no one has ever been able to make him compromise on anything he cares about. I would have met him halfway. He wanted it all. I had no choice-- I would not stand by and rubberstamp the decisions that were destroying our child, reshaping him into the worst of both of us.
And they have never forgiven me for bringing your kind into the Continuum and arming them with guns that could kill Q. I'm not sure if I ever made this clear or not, but the weapons we had originally would never have worked in mortal hands. I altered them so your crew could use them, and you would think I had strapped transgenic weapons to field mice. They know it was my actions that won the war, but I won by terrorizing and demoralizing the opposite side completely. You people are virtually *invisible* in the Continuum; how do you think your helmsman managed to sneak up on a powerful ancient Q and draw weapons on him? And there are quadrillions upon quadrillions of mortals, and less than a thousand Q. They were horrified with what I did-- even my own "side". They embraced the human-raised girl who shot down six Q in combat, more than anyone else's kill ratio, they embraced him and the war would never have started if not for him, they even forgave the inventor of the original weapon (posthumously; ironically he committed suicide after the first firefight broke out.) But me, they will not forgive. Because I gave the power to kill Q to mortals. Even though none of you ended up actually using it.
And yet they accept him. Though he embraces mortals to the point where he'd have created a half-mortal child if you'd agreed. He would have given you the power to kill his kind in a moment if he had any grasp of tactics, which he doesn't; I gave you the weapons because he trusted you. Does that help? No, of course not. He's the brave hero and I am the outcast, after I was a respectable citizen for billions of years and he was a chronic rebel and general screwup. I couldn't fight his ruining our child and fight the pressure of the Continuum at the same time. I ran because I had no other choice. He gave me none.
But I intend things to be different now. If they have declared that for my punishment I must take over half the child rearing responsibilities? That's perfectly fine. They will enforce that I have the child half the time and that Q won't be allowed to interfere when I do. I may still be able to save this child from Q's irresponsibility and total lack of discipline.
As for basic friendship-- come now, if you were "friends" with any other being who had the power to send you home and instead squandered it on giving you coffee beans, you would hardly call that friendship at all. Friends help one another. He cannot help you. He's omnipotent. He would end up running your life if you let him. So you refuse almost everything he offers you, which is all very well for your personal development but hardly the behavior of anyone who could be called a friend. Mortals cannot be friends with Q unless the Q put aside their powers for a time and live as mortals. I understand why he can't see this, since he's always been a pathetic loser in that regard, but why you can't see it, when you know the correct way to behave toward him and his gifts, is beyond me.