how do mortals continue to exist if you're all so lacking in confidence about your ability to reproduce properly?
A 20th century Human general by the name of Omar Bradley once said, "Bravery is the capacity to perform properly, even when scared half to death." In other words, do not allow fear to paralyze you. If we simply stopped and retreated at the first sign of doubt, Humans--and most other species--would never have gotten anywhere. It doesn't matter *why* you decided to have a child--the important thing is he's here and he is your responsibility. I don't know why this is alarming you as much as it is.
True, there are no guarantees--we can only try to do the best we can with the hand we're dealt. Even for omnipotent beings, there are no guarantees that you are going to be successful *or* screw up. I don't care what Q told you--you are not predestined to be a failure at parenthood. (Seems to me like she's even more frightened than you are--at least you had the guts to stay and make a go of it, to shoulder your responsibility. *You* didn't run away). Success and failure can't be measured in tangible ways--there are days in which things seem to be going smoothly, others that you wish you could simply take back and try again. Raising a child isn't a one time deal, it's a work in progress that lasts a lifetime. And it is an experience that profoundly affects all of the parties involved.
You say the Q have never done this before--but they have. amanda_the_q may have been conceived and lived the first part of her life as a Human, but she's had some growing up to do as well, and I'm sure she can tell you an awful lot about her experiences. Even Humans, though, don't try to do it all by themselves. I gather you have left your son with Amanda in the meantime, while you're off getting some much-needed time for yourself. This is a good thing. But don't stop there--when you come back, talk to Amanda, see what she has to offer you. You have your own experiences to draw on as well. I'm unclear about what state or form, what level of maturity you had when you first came into existence, but surely you had a mentor, someone who helped 'show you the ropes'?
And I really don't see why you're convinced you're a failure. Granted I've never met your son, but apparently he's happy, he looks up to you with love and perfect trust. Sounds like you're on the right track to me.
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Date: 2003-04-07 11:14 pm (UTC)how do mortals continue to exist if you're all so lacking in confidence about your ability to reproduce properly?
A 20th century Human general by the name of Omar Bradley once said, "Bravery is the capacity to perform properly, even when scared half to death." In other words, do not allow fear to paralyze you. If we simply stopped and retreated at the first sign of doubt, Humans--and most other species--would never have gotten anywhere. It doesn't matter *why* you decided to have a child--the important thing is he's here and he is your responsibility. I don't know why this is alarming you as much as it is.
True, there are no guarantees--we can only try to do the best we can with the hand we're dealt. Even for omnipotent beings, there are no guarantees that you are going to be successful *or* screw up. I don't care what Q told you--you are not predestined to be a failure at parenthood. (Seems to me like she's even more frightened than you are--at least you had the guts to stay and make a go of it, to shoulder your responsibility. *You* didn't run away). Success and failure can't be measured in tangible ways--there are days in which things seem to be going smoothly, others that you wish you could simply take back and try again. Raising a child isn't a one time deal, it's a work in progress that lasts a lifetime. And it is an experience that profoundly affects all of the parties involved.
You say the Q have never done this before--but they have.
And I really don't see why you're convinced you're a failure. Granted I've never met your son, but apparently he's happy, he looks up to you with love and perfect trust. Sounds like you're on the right track to me.